I have this amazing friend who is just the most beautiful human. One of the things that has so deeply impressed me about her is her ability to be vulnerable, open and really honest about the hardships and trials in her life. She is beautifully vulnerable, it is wonderful to witness.
One of the reasons I decided to start this blog was because I feared my students seeing me as someone with no problems, with no issues. It’s easy to see the struggles in our own lives and to assume those around us don’t have those same issues, those same struggles...it’s easy to build a false narrative about our lives compared to those around us. Add being a yoga teacher to that and then mix that with the personality I was quite literally born with, which is one of near perpetual genuine happiness (that smile you know is really and seriously real, I literally can’t help it, even when I’m having terribly hard struggles), and I think my personality can and does provide dangerous ground for folks assuming I never have hardships. I don’t want anyone to ever assume I have no struggles because it’s simply not true.
But, you know what, as much as I am impressed by and so deeply love the vulnerability of my dear beautiful friend, that’s also not me. I’m not going to be an open book about the nitty gritty of my life struggles to just anyone. I’ve been working a lot this year on really looking at who I need and want to talk to without any extra obligation...it’s been hard but good work. It’s been an interesting journey to find balance in this space...to really look at the spaces and spots where I feel comfortable and who I feel comfortable with, where it nourishes me to share and open up. Likewise, I’ve been learning to protect myself in the places where if I were to share, that sharing wouldn’t be beneficial to me. There have been times in my life where sharing was an obligation, and I simply don’t want to live like that.
Back to my amazing friend, both of our different personalities are beautiful, good, unique and correct. There isn’t a right way or a wrong way of living, of showing up, of being with others. There isn’t a more or less correct personality, openness, ability to show up and share and be with others so long as we’re showing up with respect for those around us and their own worthiness...let me repeat...so long as we’re showing up with respect for those around us and their own worthiness.
May we see our personality, our unique needs as beautiful, worthy and important this week. May we recognize that who we are is correct just as we are. May we give ourselves permission this week to be exactly who we are, our very own beautiful selves, without apology. And may we show up in our lives with respect for those around us.
I hope you have an amazing week dear friends.
Krista is a yoga and fitness instructor based in Washington DC. She has an online studio with all sorts of different class types!